that two of my
maternal aunts were sexually frigid, and perhaps this was true 1970 nude girls to
a less extent of my mother, who had a
contracted pelvis,
necessitating the induction of labor at the eighth month of
pregnancy.
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of me, and 1970 nude girls I soon became devoted 1970 nude girls to her. I was then a delicate
child, and used to suffer frequently from nightmare, waking up
screaming and covered with sweat. When this happened, B. would
sometimes take me into her bed and 1970 nude girls soothe me 1970 nude girls with 1970 nude girls kisses, etc.
These I returned, and can remember that I was particularly fond
of kissing her breasts.
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myself, was one of my most frequent playmates. I endeavored to
monopolize her company and attention, and on this account often
came to 1970 nude girls blows with 1970 nude girls C., a cousin rather younger 1970 nude girls than myself, who
has since told me that he was then 'in love' with A. and
'jealous' of 1970 nude girls me. I believe I was really jealous and in love at
the time, but cannot remember that anything in the nature of
caresses took place between A. 1970 nude girls and myself.
"Some time later, probably when I was
about 9, something led up
to B. saying that she was not 1970 nude girls built like I was, that she had no
penis, etc. (I cannot remember my nursery term for penis.) I was
incredulous, and demanded to be allowed to see if it was true;
this was 1970 nude girls refused, and 1970 nude girls I made many plans to gratify my curiosity,
such as slipping into her room when she was dressing, tipping up
the 1970 nude girls chair she was sitting in, and trying to suddenly thrust my
hand up under her skirts. I did not succeed in finding out, but
have since thought that, 1970 nude girls although she did not allow me to attain
the object of my efforts, the later game caused her pleasurable
sensations. I regard 1970 nude girls these efforts as being prompted purely by
curiosity; I had no feelings of warmth or 1970 nude girls irritations of the
genitals, and I certainly never manipulated them, nor was I, as
far as I can judge, an unusually prurient small boy. B. left when
I was about 10, when I went to a preparatory school.
"At 12? I was sent to a public school, and was then told
by 1970 nude girls my
father the chief facts of sex and warned to avoid masturbation.
My first wet dream took place when I was 14. Rather before this I
had begun to suffer with severe intermittent testicular